Und die Welt zählt laut bis zehn

[kaefig]

Life is going good except for the fact my antidepressant is making me shake like crazy now. It should go away, but if it's not gone by next week, I'm going to get my meds adjusted. I really wish I didn't need it, but it also helps with my ADHD. Hopefully, I'll be able to get off of them in a year or so. I want my brain chemistry to adjust so I'll be okay without needing medication. I love what the meds have done for me mentally. I am leaps and bounds better than I was a year ago. I can make phone calls without too make stress, I can talk to cashiers without freaking out, I can go to bed without crying for an hour. I still have trouble asking for assistance in a store, but I'm sure I'll get better with time.

My third shot is coming up tomorrow; G is going to do that one for me. I've been having dreams lately where I look the same as I do now, but everyone addresses me as "sir" and with male pronouns. It's a definite change in my mental state. The dream I had last night had something to do with me escorting a female friend to a fancy restaurant as a fake date. Kinda funny, in that sense.

As far as everything else, I have a job interview tomorrow and a concert I've been looking forward to since this whole mess started back in December. For the first time in a very long time, I'm hopeful. It feels strange to actually have hope for the future. I have an amazing support network and a new attitude. Everything will be alright in the end. I'm going to kick ass and takes names for the rest of my existence. The fearful, paranoid parts of me have been shoved back. I've come out of my shell and it feels so fucking good.

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[meteloides]

I am SO SO SO glad it's been doing so well for you. It sucks about the tremors, though. There are a few newer medications in the same class, which would have fewer side effects; I wonder if one of those would be easier tolerated. Your doctor will be able to tell you as much, if the Wellbutrin tremors aren't gone by next week, as you've said.

Have fun at the concert tomorrow! You've definitely earned it! You've really come a long way, and I'm proud of you!

[kaefig]

At least they ease up as the day goes on. It's been so good to me without major side effects until now!

I will have SO MUCH FUN. Thank you.